Shut Up Already!

I am on a journey to a healthier me and working on losing weight. I had someone ask what plan I was using or what I was doing to lose weight. Well, to be honest diets or plans just aren't for me! I LOVE food! I love discovering new flavors and trying new dishes. My daughter is only 7 and I am proud that this is a quality that she also has! She is not a picky eater and will try anything! I once decided to cook tacos de lengua (tongue tacos) and she didn't hesitate to give it a try! I don't want to deprive myself of any food I may feel like eating. When I do this I tend to go on a binge trying to find something to satisfy that one craving I'm having and end up eating more than what I would have eaten had I just indulged that craving! So what do I do? I allow myself to have whatever I'm craving but I realize in order to lose weight I have to exercise more and eat less! So I have been walking more and I have even started taking the stairs at work rather than jumping on the elevator. When it comes to food I've been watching my portions and eliminating processed foods. Rather than take a frozen meal to work for lunch I have switched to whole wheat wraps with chicken and sprouts. To satisfy my chocolate craving I have stocked up on Yoplait Whips Chocolate Yogurt. If I feel like Taco Bell I have it but instead of ordering a Nachos Bell Grande I now order the cantina tacos and have them use only one tortilla instead of the 2 they normally wrap them in! I want to lose this weight for myself and who knows me better than myself? I do not need the advice and opinions of anybody else especially when those opinions are negative!

Now, I feel the need to vent a bit! I have a coworker that feels the need to comment on everything I eat at lunch! Last year she even went as far as taking the wrapper from my food out of the trash and she would read the nutritional content to me on more than one occasion! She would lecture on the amount of sodium it contained. She would also make comments on the fact that I took the elevator and berate me in front of our colleagues (many of which also take the elevator)! She wears her clothes at least 2 sizes too big and has mentioned several times that she had to have her favorite pair of linen pants altered this summer because they were just too big! That's great but if your clothes have been falling off of you for the past year then shut up about it and buy some new clothes! I'm sorry I can't eat 2 crackers with a tablespoon of hummus like she does and survive the day! I would be a bitch! Well, I guess I can be a bitch regardless of what I eat but hopefully you get the point! Sadly, my husband is the same way and coming from someone you love and trust is even more hurtful and destructive! He comes home from work and will ask what we had for lunch or dinner. Last night Gabi replied that we had Taco Bell. He immediatley goes into a lecture about how he thought I wanted to work on losing weight! I AM! I shouldn't have to justify every single bite I take to anybody but myself! Please! Does he not realize when he says these hurtful, rude things that it only sends me off on a binge! Sometimes I think he purposefully tries to sabotage my efforts! I mean he can start going off on a lecture last night because Gabi and I ate a taco but how many times have I been watching what I eat only to have him stop into Dairy Queen for ice cream or he will bring home something else ridiculously indulgent! Seriously?! Well, you all can kiss my skinny ass when I hit my goal! It may not happen in 6 months and it may not happen in a year but trust me when I say it WILL happen! I am taking one day, one step, and one bite at a time!