Week 1

Well, it has been one week since my renewed commitment to my health! I was so excited to step on that scale this morning and see a 5.5 pound loss! I was truly on cloud 9 but unfortunately my excitement was short-lived! After un-plugging for several days I was bombarded with phone calls today from my siblings! My brother had to finally step up to the plate and come to town to take care of my Dad as I have told them I am no longer doing it! Well, my brother is getting a taste of what I deal with on a day to day basis. He thought he was coming in town to move Dad into the nursing home. Somebody stopped by and was asking questions and filling out paper work. My brother said my Dad as usual was lying through his teeth! He pulled the lady aside to give her the accurate information and discovered she didn't work for the nursing home but rather an assisted living apartments. Dad requires much more care than they are capable of! So naturally he was declined! My sister texted that he was crying and upset! So now another day has gone by and he says he will now go into the home but my brother can't take off work another day! Nobody is looking at the big picture! You can't just come down one day, move him into the home, and expect everything to be taken care of! Who is going to get the mail? What about the house and utilities? Who is going to make sure his grass is mowed so he doesn't get a notice from the city? They all just expect me to take care of it!

I am so sick of this game! I don't mind helping but I have a full time job, family, and home I have to take care of too. So I told them I was done and ignored all their calls the past 2 days and now they are calling and begging me to take him in tomorrow! That was what was supposed to happen today! Of course there is no guarantee that he will go in tomorrow and we will be back to square one! Then there is that big picture that I will be responsible for as well! I'm so tired! I was feeling a little guilty this morning about shutting out my Dad and brother and ignoring their calls but after I heard about what happened today I feel no remorse! It is about time my brother gets a taste of what I deal with. Now if he could only experience the midnight phone calls, getting the entire family up and dressed and driving to town to pick Dad up off the floor he'd truly know what I deal with! Am I being selfish? I just don't know how much more I can take!